Happy or sad?

Someone is pregnant again…….. Should be happy for that person but don’t know why I feel very sad about myself. Had mixed feeling, don’t know how to describe. I wished that I can stop thinking of it but my stupid mind keep bothering on it. It’s just permanently stay in my mind. How can I make myself to forget it? Can whoever is pregnant don’t tell me…don’t know why I always get upset when ppl tell me this. Whenever I think of it, I just can’t stop crying. Everyone wan to get pregnant is so easy but to me; it’s like plucking stars from the sky. Perhaps it’s stress cos I wanted to have baby badly but am I wrong…… Oh god, I am giving up.