Never pin high hope

I come menses already :(

I thought i can get pregnant this time round. Who knows, it's a false alarm. I dont know why am i getting all the pain. Now my lower back still got slight pain. If i stand too long, it comes again. Very disappointed.

Today i reported to my new dept. Nobody is free to teach me anything. My new boss ask me to look at the spreadsheet and try to understand myself first. Everything looks german to me. Cham, i shall wait till monday and see who can explain to me