Disappointment again

Since last Thur, i start to have brown discharge. It continue for 5days and my menses just don't want to come full force. When I am hoping that it don't come at all, last night it came. Thought I can get pregnant this time but false alarm again. I don't understand why, my menses became very irregular these few months. It takes more that 40 day for one cycle :( Getting harder and harder to conceive. Why other people get pregnant so easily.........Am I really giving myself a lot of stress???? I am giving up, waiting in vain really make me more and more disappointed each time. Hate the feeling of waiting.........:(

All alone at home :(

As expected, i will be left all alone at home. My father in law still ask me not to go back my mum's place when dear is not around. Say got 2 persons staying at home will be better. But what is this...She sms me saying she will be staying out late, ask me to feed the dog. I already expected. Only leaving me to feed her dog and clear her dog's shit. Cos she knows i got no where to go and wash her unwashed dishes. Really sian.

Thailand again

Dear is flying off to Thailand today again. His company project will end this Dec hence he has to fly there quite often. This time going for 4 days. That leaves me with his sis alone at home. His parent will be back on Sun. Argh, So sian.