So sad

Today two of my colleagues are leaving SingTel. One of them is very close to me cos I used to confide in her for my problems. And she always gives me advice. We used to go home together. Just that when I move office to another floor and my working hour changes, we can’t go home together. She’s like a big sister guiding me. I am happy that she has found a new life and aim in life.

We just had a tea session together. Before I go back to office, we gave one another a hug. I cried. I already try to hold back my tears bur eventually my tears just flow out. I am too emotional. I hope I can do away this bad habit. I cry easily. Oh no, how to be more strong. All my colleagues laugh at me when I cry :(

Heartless boss

Overheard from my colleague that my boss actually told him that recently I cannot focus on my job because of my wedding preparation. I didn’t expect that he will say out such thing. Last Friday, he want me to stay back to do something. I told him that the next day I am going to ROM and I have a lot of things to do. He still insists that I should send it out that day. Everyone thinks that it can be sent out today but that heartless man doesn’t think that way. Very sad that he go and tell my other colleagues like that.

He didn’t congratulate me, it’s fine. He doesn’t even understand my situation. Please lor, I don’t sell my live to SingTel. Working is not the priority of my life. He want to claim credit, it’s his business. Don’t ever think that I will be under him forever. I am getting sick of him every single day here in SingTel. If I have a chance, I will leave this place. See how he survive if all his staffs left. Over 8 years here, I have seen many staffs under him quitting and transferring. He is not fit to be a manager. He’s just a rigid old man and cannot keep up with the managing skills. His old way of managing people has outdated. Young people today don’t take his shit!

My mani for my ROM

Did this for my ROM :) Got a hard time maintaining it

Am i wrong again?

Sometime I was wondering what my sister is thinking. She did a day surgery on Monday and she want to make the whole world to attend to her.

Yesterday I took leave to prepare for this coming Sat ROM, not to take leave to help her to discharge. And somemore I shouldn’t be stepping into the hospital 3 months before my wedding. I have a lot of things to do and a lot of things cork up too. I nearly can’t collect my cert because I forgot to make a copy of my dad’s IC. I tried calling him but he off his phone. He finally picks up when I reach ROM and I got scolded by him. So we quickly went down to his working place to get his IC. We got back ROM just in time. Many other things cork up but I never seek her for help.

I knew she has 2 children to look after, I never ask her to do any single thing for me. She’s now complaining that I am not fit to be an elder sis. My wedding is more impt than her life. Hey, need to say until so serious meh? I admit I am not that kind of person who show out concern in action. Is all her husband’s fault for not paying attention to her and she come and find fault on other ppl.

1 more day to go is my ROM. She’s now bringing up all the past things to say again. I really don’t understand why she can’t forget the past. She wants to remember them until the day she dies? I long have forgotten what had happen in the past. Whatever is happy or sad. I only look forward for the future. She’s just spoiling my mood. She’s unhappy and everyone must join her in her suffering.

Argh, why do I deserve all these? Why this and that person keep putting blame on me? I really don’t know what wrong have I made. I am super low morale now. No mood to get married. Seems like having this wedding is not right…………………….

Amazing.

Just now we’re making sandwich doe our lunch. While cutting the tomato, I cut myself. It keep bleeding non stop so I put a plaster. Now I sudd realize that the blood form a heart shape on my plaster.

Repainted our room and add on designs

Add in some butterflies to our wall. Went to print out some butterfly designs. We cut out the shape out and paint it white :)

Pedicure

Did my pedicure today. Nail polish color "OPI, I am really not a waitress" with white flower. Big toe attached a diamonate :)

Swap room le

Today is really a tired day. After we wake up, we start to dismantle his parent's bedframe then move the bed over. Then slowly, we pack our wardrobe clothes and move over bits by bits. Now his mum finally knows that our current wardrobe is small. Now not enough space to put her stuffs.

There are so many things to pack. We threw away alot of things. Now our room is packed with alot of paper bags all over the floor. We're waiting for the bedframe to come on 23 Jul then slowly pack things underneath the bed.

Below is a pic without our bedframe. The other corner of the room is messy hence will take pic when the bedframe comes. Hehe :)

A clearer pic of my hair

Ask my colleague to take for me. Is the color nice?

New top for my mum

Bought my mum a new top for my ROM. Wanted to buy her the long sleeves version but she like this design hence i just buy for her.

My new hair color

Today i went to dye and highlight my hair :) It cost me $100 after 50% discount. Nice ma? :)

Finally painted our room

We finally got our room painted :) The color turned out to be redder and the effect is nice. Like Maroon color. Haven’t got a chance to take a picture cos it’s still his parent’s room, keke. Will upload when our bed frame moves in on 23rd Jul 08 :)

A busy weekend.

Sat went to the gym with Marie after so long never go to the gym. Abit guilty, keke. Have to start going again. 2 weeks plus to my ROM and I am not anxious at all. Cham la. Work is stress plus wedding preparation lagi stress make me eat more and I put on weight le. Unforgiveable. Have to work extra hard.

We spend the whole Sunday packing our room. Threw away a lot of books and rubbish. Now the room looks so tidy. We have to clear away our stuffs for their parent to paint our current room. On 23 Jul 08, when our bed comes, then we move their bed over to our current room. We will then paint their room. We’re swapping the rooms. But still the master bedroom bathroom cannot use for bathing. But better than nothing, we can use the master bedroom toilet, keke. At least his parent is quite thoughtful, give us the bigger room.

Time really passed, we are left with only 2 months to prepare. I hope everything quickly passed. So scary waiting for the day to come…

I hate wedding preparation

Getting married isn’t a happy thing. I am really not happy at all. My mum wan to buy those tradition baby bathtub, potty, face washbasin etc but my MIL said no need, just give a hongbao to symbolize will do. Then I told my mum that, she is abit angry I can see and said next time when I give birth, she’s not gg to buy for me le. I don’t know what all these symbolize and I wish I can don’t care at all. Both side’s thinking are not the same then I am caught in the middle. One side want to follow tradtion, one side want to make it simple. I am really sick of all these. I am having phobia of getting married. Really feel like running away from all these. I am really tired being caught in the middle

I bet more and more things will come out in future. Sian ah, I don’t want to know so much.

FAN SI REN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!